In a moment I want you to close your eyes. I want to share with you a thought, or an idea that resonates within me, the dreamer.
Today everything doesn’t need to make sense… it’s okay for me to be afraid as long I am willing to face these fears rather than run from them. For years I have been standing still, afraid to move forward in fear of losing everything and everyone that I’ve ever loved.
Allow me the chance to be your eyes so you can see past the obvious, let me be your heart so you can feel past the moment. Let me take your hand and show you what I see, make you feel what I feel and understand why I feel it. Blind, blind to the colors that are right in front of you. Surrounded by black and white with shades of gray and a pessimistic perspective which continues to drag not
Continue reading…
I am a verse wrapped inside a chorus, I am a blanket of lyrics sewn together by a string of words which both define, and destroy me. I am the aftermath of a powerful storm, I am the rainbow dancing through the sky as the thunder quietly fades away. I am the last kid picked, the first one blamed, and the only one stupid enough to stand still just long enough to watch it all slip away.
It’s an awkward realization knowing that my life could be defined by three words, two positions.. fight or flight.
The evolution of a relationship, a friendship and everything in between is often a complex and confusing maze of emotions, discoveries and memories. Each day I spend with her I learn something new, I find that beauty can be hidden in the most unlikely of places. The connection between her and I exceeds that of sexual, physical, emotional and even mental. As a Pisces I was born of water, as an Aries she was raised by fire. Like fire and
Continue reading…
From the first day we breathe to the day our heart stops, each day we live just another day bought. While high up above the sky seems so far, when the rain starts to fall it begins cleansing old scars. The life which you’ve lost won’t rest all alone; their memory lives deep down in your soul. Remember the tears you cried by their side, remember their smile and the arms you confide. Remember the past for it’s written in stone, prepare for a future
Continue reading…
I have spent my life looking through the eyes of those around me. Gazing endlessly into eyes of strangers absorbing the pain they keep inside. I don’t want to believe this is the top, I don’t feel like this is all over. My love my loss, my pain it’s cost. Priceless and blatant it tears me apart; it leaves me hanging on to yesterday and standing still today. I am a child in a closet hiding from the screaming, the
Continue reading…
Sheltered, beneath the warmth of loves embrace, this world is not all that it appears to be. So many different shades of gray yet inside we are all still children. Not one of us truly wishes to grow up, for in our hearts we will live as children eternally. Life has a strange way of making us grow old; another responsibility leads to another failure. I sit here alone day in day out finding more and more ways to fight
Continue reading…
Are you okay? This is the life I live… What is wrong? The same things been broken all along. Is anyone really okay, knowing that inside of us all we are only lying to ourselves trying to piece together what it is we are supposed to be doing? Is it okay to not know how you feel at any given time? If you feel fine, but the world around you is asking what is wrong, your face isn’t lying, your
Continue reading…