It is funny, you think you know someone and then they do a complete 180 for no reason whatsoever.  

Sometimes it is easier to run and search for a path that is less traveled and make some sort of attempt at starting over and erasing memories both pleasant and painful of those who were once in your life but were quickly replaced by a simple yet concrete form of mild and abstract amusement.  

I mean shit, look at some of the people around you, even your best of friends and family, how many of them genuinely care or really give a damn about you. When you are lost and alone who is there to take your hand and guide you somewhere beautiful… those are the ones that matter in your life.  

I sat back today pondering upon those in my life, and it is hard because only 4-5 people really would be there, the rest would pass by like dust in the wind, most wrapped up in their own self-conceit and shallow selfish ways. 

It is amazing how low a person can go when they just stop caring, it is like no matter what you say or tears you could cry, they are aged iron rusted on the edges but solid in form. Some people need to just fucking vanish and save the world the despair they are only destined to create, the anguish and heartache the will cause, and the pile of lies they will accumulate over time offering only a solace of comfort to someone with no heart and little to no life left in them. Sometimes it is just time to say fuck it and cut your losses, if you even have any.  

Time and time again decades fade away, 100 years from now you will all be dead, 100 years from that no one will ever know you ever even existed. You are suddenly a faceless name on a concrete form in a cemetery of thousands that most if not all ignore as they walk by you or toss a cigarette butt upon your resting place.  

These words are here for one simple reason and defined manner. get off your ass and do something with your life, you are achieving nothing watching it pass by and in the end we all must die, it is your choice now to die forgotten or remembered. I mean let us face it, you only have one guarantee in life, why not make the best of it?  

Take these words for whatever you want, it is just random thoughts that needed paper, meddling emotions and blackened remains.  

Mood: Disappointed
Music: Linkin Park – Breaking The Habit 

I’ll paint it on the walls 
‘Cause I’m the one at fault 
I’ll never fight again 
And this is how it ends 
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for 
Or why I have to scream 
But now I have some clarity 
To show you what I mean 
I don’t know how I got this way 
I’ll never be alright 
So I’m breaking the habit 
I’m breaking the habit 
I’m breaking the habit tonight