So, it has been forever and a day since I have taken the time to sit down and write in my journal. I wish I could give some sort of excuse, but I really cannot.  

Lately life has been kind of moving slow, which to be honest I enjoy because I was sick of it moving so fast and me being left behind. This weekend, although NOTHING was accomplished it was nice to spend time at home with some friends and of course Lori, I did not want to do anything, no real reason to.  

So, my buddy Chad got home from the army, I have not seen or even heard a single thing from him since he got back, and I’m left to wonder if he is mad at me or something? He is having a hard time adjusting to a so-called life that he once thought was real and now is constantly switching between what is real and what is just a dream, at least that is what I gather.  

Me, hmm what about me…  

I am trying to slowly but surely get myself out of debt with bills that were set aside when the transmission went out and still keeping my head above water here at home. Work has been okay and through work I have developed some really great friendships that I hold very dear. 

Me and Lori are doing pretty good, we’re not perfect but I don’t even look for perfect, more or less just sane. I love her very much, I tend to notice that I don’t tell her or show her that as much as I should, but she should know that I love her very much.  

We once again fell behind on keeping the house up, I trust Lori can catch up this week and I’ll try and help where I can. Emotionally, inside I’m bruised, not as torn as usual and just taking time to heal from some ups and downs that damn near left me dead in the street.  

We play a lot of games, it makes time go by and keeps us out of trouble, I don’t need money to play games and its good because right now I don’t have much, like I said catching up is a bitch.  

I have found that headphones are very nice, I can listen to my music as loud as I want and not piss anyone off. Right now, I am switching between a variety of Saliva songs. Soul driving lyrics directly into your head, very nice.  

I had this need to type, use my hands for something useful considering I have been sitting in this chair since 2pm playing games and have not really accomplished anything worth talking about. So here I am at almost 2 am, contemplating the meaning of sleep knowing that I have to work tomorrow. 

I realized in the past few months that Rich is by far one of my very best friends, we can just sit and do nothing and have the best time doing it. I trust him which is very important, as I don’t really trust anyone anymore.  

Lori, I love you. I know this weekend was boring, but it went by nice and slowly, which is VERY nice!  

Well everyone, this is the part where I say something useful and bid you farewell, but since I don’t really have anything overly cleaver or unique in my head right this second, I’ll just say Cya till the next time I find time for my journal however many months away that will be 🙂