Close my eyes as the river runs red, the skies lined in darkness and the trees set on fire. the earth comes to a screaming halt as the world we knew comes to an end. Forget your dreams, your promises now broken, forget those you love, they are all screaming and drowning in tears left behind by those lost before them.  

Say your prayers and hold on tight, this is the start of the rest of your life. The end is near you smell the fear, the hate you anguished as the demons start to tear, your flesh is torn your body is broken, your lifeline cut and your heartbeat pulsing.  

The wind with the force of a thousand tornadoes, a hurricane force blow separates you from the ground gravity has defined for you. Everything you thought was real now adds up to nothing more than a pipe-dream and an ideal lost in the screams of those around you.  

Now open my eyes and see this world, it is as I left it less than a second ago, the air stands still, it is hard to breathe, the reality you just saw now only a dream most commonly confused with a nightmare. You take a breath gasping for air, you can’t understand why it’s so hard to care.  

I close my eyes again and it all comes back, everything I hate and everything I forgot. I see my past and how it haunts my future, I see my fears so vivid and clear. I see you standing there with a smile on your face, laughing at me now because I’m nothing more than a fucking disgrace. nothing more than a pile of lies, nothing less than my fucking disguise. 

There is no future beneath my eyes, just broken memories and a promised demise. you look at me with everything you hate, waiting for the chance to desecrate my fate. Waiting for the moment you know will hurt me most, that one split second where my shadows a ghost. Where I am left there shaking hurt and alone, when my heart is at its weakest, there is nowhere to go and in that split second, you deliver the blow.  

I fall to my knees and grab on my chest, my hearts in your hands now, there is nothing more left…. I raise my head and open my eyes, it was all just a dream with tears in my eyes, it seemed so real I reached for my chest, I realize now I cannot catch my breath, my life means nothing, it was real, I guess. 

Mood: Numb
Music: Linkin Park – Numb