So, I was laying there in bed, staring at the ceiling with my eyes closed tight but still open wide. Thinking hard about everything that is anything and wondering where this dream ends, and reality begins.  

It seems to me like this life is either too good or not good enough, it is hard to find a happy medium where no one is sad, and no one is afraid. So, I need to get out of this house, one way or another we gotta get out of here. It is like the walls sometime sweat off a thin layer but clearly visible form of frustration.  

We are happy though, inside, and outside of every little argument, discussion, or long talk about anything about everything I honestly believe we are happy. Sure, our life is not much, but it is just enough, and we are able to breathe.  

Lately time has been pushing its boundaries, and some of the people I cared about pushing the boundaries of our friendship, some have fallen and lost, and others are still right here. To those who have fallen I will always remember you, and to those still with me I will cherish you.  

Death is upon me lately, first my boss and now Lisa’s brother Brian and his girlfriend. Brian was a good guy, he had his head and heart in a battle that he could not win, although I barely knew him, I will remember him… and my thoughts and prayers go out to Lisa and her whole family.  

I will admit I am scared, there was a time when I was not afraid of death but knowing now that it is the end of everything I am, it makes me realize that life is precious and not to take it for granted.  

That is about all I have to say right now, I am listening to music that is making me think too much, it is a good thing though. Here are some lyrics to some Trapt songs, Echo and New Beginning. 
 
Take care everyone… 

Mood: Happy
Music: Trapt – Echo

“Echo”

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I’ll run away with you by my side
I’ll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don’t need to solve this case
And I don’t need to look behind

“New Beginning“

The pressure is building I want to break away
Motivation is lacking the point starts to fade
I look to the bottom still empty still the same
I’m waiting for something to show me the way
To the path that I should take, it’s just too real to go ahead and fake
Every step that I make
Name your price I would give anything
I want to start over again
What do I want I have nothing to say
Whatever it is I want it today
Do we choose our own ground Do we choose to stay
Well I’ve seen too many throw it away

Do I see just one small chance to be myself to try and make it last
Every step that I take